The above mentioned person who was paid as much as me but was stripped off his responsibility and earlier on in the year admitted to road rage attack but kept his job was unaffected! May this year we were called to big meeting and we were told that the team leaderвЂ™s and above were being made redundant! I was a team leader, so i was affected. The next year was reasonably settled, i had to share a van with a drug addicted,heavy drinker, didnвЂ™t like many of the people there ( many tree surgeons can be big headed by nature) but i coped. I HATED IT!!! But i struggled through, got used to the horrible, selfish, dishonest people and the company b****** and used the money to move to a new home effectively doubling our mortgage to around ВЈ120k. The money was fantastic (more than i had ever dreamed of earning)and even though i was scared of the change and leaving an environment that i was used to, with some great friends i вЂњwent for itвЂќ So end of 2014 i was offered the chance to apply for a role within a large Utility company doing what i had always done (i am an Arborist by trade) clearing power lines of trees.

We had very young children a modest mortgage and in the UK you get tax credits if you earn a smaller income so we вЂњscraped byвЂќ and i did bits of private work to get us along. If i am honest i go to bed every night hoping not to wake up.ДЄlmost 3 years ago i moved from a fairly low paid job in which i was good at but came with lots of baggage, i worked as an instructor at a College so not great money but we kind of got by and looking back, which i do often, i was probably a lot happier than what i thought i was/should be. I am in a bad, scary place at the moment and would really appreciate some advice.

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